CARRIE Underwood broke down in tears and painfully admitted that she was “angry at God” after she suffered three miscarriages.
The singer and her husband Mike Fisher have been opening up about their marriage in a four-part docuseries Mike & Carrie: God and Country on IAmSecond.
In the second part of the series, Carrie and Mike revealed the pain of getting pregnant three times and losing the pregnancies after her son Isaiah’s birth.
The Jesus, Take The Wheel singer told the cameras as she held back tears: “I remember not wanting to be by myself, I went up to Isaiah’s room and crawled into bed with him.
“I don’t know how that kid didn’t wake up, I was balling.
“I feel like I’ve been a Christian my whole life and I always wanted to be a good daughter.
“And having a child, even if you know what’s wrong with your child, you want them to talk to you about it, you want to make that connection and I just had an honest conversation with God and I told him how I felt.
“I was hurt and I was a little angry. And of course, you feel guilty for being mad at your creator.
“And I told him I needed something – we needed to have a baby or not ever because I couldn’t go down that road anymore.”
After the miscarriages, Carrie and Mike were finally able to get pregnant again, and they welcomed their son Jacob in January 2019.
Before discussing their heartache, the American Idol winner admitted she feared she wouldn’t be a good mom.
Carrie added: “I was never good with other people’s kids, why would I be good with my own?”
But after the birth of their first child Isaiah, she learned what it truly felt like to be “in love.”
The couple met at one of Carrie’s concerts in 2008, and married in 2010.
The blonde beauty, who hails from Oklahoma, explained how she and Mike are “drastically” different people.
Carrie said when she was a kid, she “always said I would never marry a hunter… Never not in a million years.”
“When we were dating, it’s like ‘We’ll be fine,'” added Mike.
“Then all of a sudden, we get married and it’s like, ‘Woah, here we go.'”
Carrie responded: “We just differ. Drastically.”
The series is one of the only in-depth interviews the notoriously private couple has ever done.
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